15 Days Of Solitude

"Today, I want to share something very important with all of you. I want to share my 15-day experience, from December 21st to January 6th, of being alone in my hostel room.

What's special about these 15 days is that I was completely alone on my floor, with only two other girls who were unknown to me. Thus, I found myself essentially alone, with no companions to accompany me. I barely met my friends and classmates during this time.

"In those 15 days, only one thought kept recurring in my mind: 'If something happens to me in this room, who will take care of me?' The answer was clear: no one but Allah.

We often realize the importance of our parents and their presence in our lives only when they're gone or we're away from them. Before and After our parents, it's Allah who takes care of us, watches over us, and protects us.

There are countless blessings that Allah has bestowed upon us, but we rarely express gratitude. If a person is alone and starts counting the blessings Allah has given them, they won't be able to count them even if they spend their entire life doing so."

Throughout these 15 days, one thought kept recurring in my mind: 'Am I so bad that Allah has made me completely alone?' But then, when I looked at the outside world, I thought, 'No, Allah hasn't made me alone, but rather protected me from all the evils and corruptions that people are indulging in today.'

"I never felt scared, nor did I feel anxious about being alone, because my heart was convinced that Allah is always with me, watching over me at all times and in every situation.

I felt a unique sense of security and trust because I had the Quran, prayer (Namaz), and Allah's companionship. No matter what humans do, they can't achieve anything without Allah's support. Even if they hide in a corner of the world, without Allah's presence, humans are worthless and insignificant."

Allah has given us solitude, guiding us towards the light (Noor) and away from darkness."

And Allah says in the Quran, Surah Ar Raad, Verse Number 28: Verily, in the remembrance of Allah do the hearts find rest.”

"Nobody can understand us except Allah, not even our parents, siblings, or loved ones. Nobody can care for us like Allah. Allah alone was the one who comforted my heart. Prayer (Namaz) was the means through which I found peace. The Quran was the source of solace for my heart.

Know for certain that a person can never find true peace by disconnecting from Allah. Even if they attain a palace, they will never find peace without Allah. Peace can only be achieved by crying in front of Allah.

Prayer (Namaz), fasting (Roza), and reciting the Quran force a person to change and reflect on themselves to such an extent that they become solely devoted to Allah."

"Even if your parents call you and ask about your well-being, you can't share with them the struggles you're facing. You're alone in that small room, and every moment is witnessed by Allah. He sees, hears, and knows every beat of your heart.

If you fall ill, your parents can't come to support you from across the seas. Only Allah can grant you healing, take care of you, and give you peace.

Allah only grants peace to humans when they surrender themselves to Him. Humans should be grateful to Allah and obey Him in every situation.

In Surah Ash-Shu'ara, verses 77-82, Prophet Ibrahim (peace be upon him) says: Indeed, they are enemies to me, except the Lord of the worlds.

Who created me, and He [it is who] guides me.

And it is He who feeds me and gives me drink.

And when I am ill, it is He who cures me.

And who will cause me to die and then bring me to life

And who I aspire that He will forgive me my sin on the Day of Recompense."

"Loneliness weakens a person, but if Allah is with them, they can conquer the entire world alone. However, without Allah's presence, a person is empty and hollow.

Now, I understand why Allah has provided the companionship of righteous friends in Paradise. It's because, in this world, humans face many forms of loneliness. Imagine having a grand, luxurious palace with all the amenities—gardens, swimming pools, various cuisines, fruits, and comforts. But, if there's no one to share it with, the loneliness won't disappear, no matter how many luxuries you have.

When Adam (peace be upon him) was sent to Paradise, he felt lonely. So, Allah created Hawwa (Eve) to accompany him and alleviate his loneliness.

Think about it: even if you're granted everything in Paradise but have no one to share it with, how would you feel? Humans always need someone's companionship. A person can never be truly happy alone, without someone to share their thoughts and feelings with.

That's why Allah has blessed us with the institution of Nikah (marriage), a gift that provides companionship and alleviates loneliness."

"In recent days, I've had some conflicts with my friends, and throughout this journey, I've started focusing more on myself. I realized that sometimes, in the name of friendship, we cross boundaries without even realizing it, causing hurt to others.

So, I decided that it's essential to set boundaries in friendships to avoid becoming too casual and insensitive to others' feelings. No matter how close a friend is, Allah has given them a heart that can feel pain.

One should always maintain friendships within limits so the circle of friendship remains intact, and individuals remain considerate towards others. That's why I've decided to limit my interactions with friends, as sometimes people become reckless and lose control without realizing it.

A person should always have self-control, to the extent that even Satan gets tired. But don't get tired of following your faith. Allah says in Surah Zukhruf, verse 67: Close friends, that Day, will be enemies to each other, except for the righteous..

"After reading this verse, I always reflect on whether I'm a loyal and true friend to my friends. Can I keep their secrets confidential, considering them my own? Am I willing to go to any lengths for my friends? Can I guide them on right and wrong?

I feel that perhaps I'm not that kind of friend who can accompany my friends to Paradise, but I always pray to Allah to make me like those who possess patience and perseverance. I ask Allah to make me a sincere friend to my friends."